favourite drink? Big gulp.

2010-12-20T18:06:00.002+08:00

Just now was impactful . Its the first time I broke down that badly after I experienced God . My whole eyes are red . He allows me to be tempted, yet grants me the strength to overcome it, attain forgiveness from Him and find joy in his grace He'd shown me . Through this incident, I've experienced His power and all greatness!! Praise the Lord, all glory goes to Him =)

2010-12-01T23:21:00.002+08:00

Not a very pleasant day . I was looking forward to doing this thing everyday for this week since last fri . But due to unforseen circumstances, I can't make it on mon and tues, making today the first possible day of the week . HOWEVER, circumstances are once again set such that I got to gv it a miss again today . Worse, I held on to the thought of doing it all along, until to the very last min tat I realised its goin to be postponed again .

Seriously .. Utterly disappointed . Alot of other emotions also overwhelmed me just now .

On another note, this one person is the first person that nearly make me tear today in a public transport (MRT) . Its not because ur presence was there (in which you wasn't in the 1st place) , but because of the actions u've done earlier .

*If anyone hv any idea who I'm referring to, it would be nice to just keep it to yourself . Thanks .*

To sum it all, I'm actually quite an emotional person (ISFP) . I strongly believe that I've split personality and wears a 'mask' most of the time . I'm sick and tired of hanging a fake smile on my face ..

2010-11-08T22:40:00.003+08:00

What's happening? I can't seem to connect with them anymore . I feel so outcasted out of the sudden . I've not feel this way since the start of school .. Is it really due to games? Or .. Coz of fellowship?

What exactly is the reason??????????????????????

I seriously feel so lost ..

(^0.0^)

2010-10-05T09:27:00.002+08:00

Its been so long since I last blog-ed . Nothing much to do, so I'm here once again (:
This has been by far one of the most Meaningful holidays for me . Learnt a couple of new and impt things in life . I love Navigators family and of course, God Himself . Give thanks to Him for my perfect results .. I've nothing more to ask for other than maintaining status quo in my academic studies .

In everything, Praise the Lord =)

2010-08-23T11:08:00.002+08:00

Looked through some of my old blog post . I'm happy at where I am now . My life changed quite a fair bit and it improved alot . But even though, there are always regrets that I hope I could change .. Such a waste, stupid me .

2010-08-16T14:58:00.002+08:00

Heheh .. I'll just post whatever that's on my mind now .

Class chalet, its pretty enjoyable . Really . Through this, I actually get to see the actual personality and characteristics of my fellow classmates . Also, it is this chalet that actually make me see the clear and distinct difference between the 2 goups . That is undenyable, seriously huge huge difference between them . Well, 'birds of the same feather flogs together' .. How true . Sometimes its really amazing how people 'clicks' with one another, knowing that they are of similar wavelength, right from the beginning they meet each other . I guess that's basic human instinct . My peers are ALL very nice people though.

I realised my blog's post are usually flooded with people and self orientated stuffs . Haha .. As usual, I'm still very much to myself. High chances are because of the secret . I'm not intending to let it out, but it would be best to let known, providing there isn't any back firing effect between friends .

What more can I ask for? DBF/FT/1A/02 rocks, especially those in my clique =)

2010-07-06T00:37:00.011+08:00

Haha .. It's the first time I'm using my laptop to publish a post on my blog, my this pathetic dead blog . Omg .

I feel that it's so hard to revive a blog after it was left inactive for such a long long time . Most of the regular readers will be lost as they won't know I have a blog anymore ..

I'm jus uploading some random stuffs as I just can't get to sleep now . I'm unusually alert and only God knows why =)

Seriously seriously miss my iphone 3Gs 32GB .. I see so many ppl using it . Once upon a time, I use to have it too but now .. Gone . It's barely a month old, I still harbour thoughts of getting it back ):

DANIEL!!! A classmate of mine . So damn comical . He practically made mii LOL and LMAO every single day with his sick yet amusing jokes . Kind of entertaining sometimes ^^

Chen Li Ping (the actress) sitting on a bench in a 'sleeping buddha' position .

Without doubt, I LOVE BADMINTON . If I can go back to the past, I will definitely grab hold of any opportunity thrown to mii to do well in this sport . I didn't treasure the opportunity then in p3, I didn't excel in it, I have completely no motivation and I totally don't wish to do well in this area of sport then . All i can say is .. regret .

Okay this part is random, but I wish to say I really like my class, DBF/FT/1A/02, now . Bunch of really nice ppl .. smart, caring and everything . I dunnoe if I can survive next academic yr when I might have to change class again . I dislike changing classes, or rather, I dislike changes . I just like to remain status quo in my own cozy environment . The feeling of getting to know brand new ppl again is like .. Hais . That's just me . But well, I'll try to change .

I don't like my results . 2As, 2Bs, 1C .. The C, especially, ruins everything . It's like totally pathetic, omg . I just have to work harder and smarter next time I guess.

Cya .. I guess its time for mii to sleep =)

updated ~ I'll not entertain tags on this post .

2010-06-15T15:23:00.015+08:00

Updated (for now) ~ Not sure if I should keep this blog going or not ..

I feel more and more screwed up . How?? I feel that I'm lagging so much in life . I feel that I'm good in nothing . Things that I want to do, stuffs that I want to be good at .. I can't do them .

It seems so easy to others, sometimes, I practice (in all aspects) as hard, or even more than others, but why they can do it and why can't I? Is it because I'm not putting in enough effort? Or, I didn't put in my heart and soul in doing things? Or is it simply because, I'm born stupid and just somehow inferior compared to the people around me?

I lack in all the '-ships' . I'm just feeling so sad . I really don't know what am I living for now . What's my aim in life?? Most people already build a strong foundation for themselves, have aims and stuffs . I hardly have any .

I see the smiles on people's faces . Their photos, their beautiful life they are leading . But, how about me? Mine's no where close to theirs . I'm also a human . I want those life just as everybody want to . But why is this happening to most people except for me? Why must I be the unlucky one? Life is so unfair, I don't want to be born like this . I don't have a choice . I'm seriously so envious, and jealous .

I don't know what my future lies .. what will I be like 20 yrs down the road . Will I be a father?? What job career will I be in? I don't dare to think . I'm already 17, if this thing doesn't improve, I really don't know what to do . I have no idea how this is going to carry on . It can't drag on forever . Everybody are already in those stuffs, yet, I'm not . Not that I don't to, not that I don't have the ability to do so, but I can't . To do that is just not me, and to be me is just not normal .

I'm a deep thinker . That's an undenyable fact . Smiles that I wear everyday when I step out of the house, how often are they real? If any of you think it reflects the happiness inside me, think again . Don't even try asking how often I cried myself to sleep . People like me, with skeletons in their closet, needs privacy more than others . We don't like to be Exposed (in EVERY sense of the word) . I'm really quite a fragile person inside . Seriously . I'm just putting up a strong front . Penetrate the surface, and chances are I will die . I don't wish to be a hypocrete, but sometimes, I'm forced to be . Nevertheless, I will try not to . I can be quite frank and blunt sometimes, calling a spade a spade . But that's just me . However if I treat you as a friend, I really will do, and I mean it . Seriously, that's my attitude now . I don't know why, but I just changed so much over the years .

Do everybody think like this? Or is it just me? I think I'm not normal, I'm just a pile of bullshit .

I'm really sorry for lying to everyone .

Feeling so screwed up now, seriously . Screw my entire life .

quick post

2010-02-23T10:20:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was fun . Really fun but tiring . Played badminton with 5 others . It's the first time I played until my right wrist feel pain .. Too many extreme cross net and drop shots I suppose .

Will be playing bowling later at 1pm .

Work at NTUC was alright I suppose . At least, I got a first hand experience how work is like . Haha ..

Now I really dun know what to do ... freakin bored . Hope time quickly flash to 1pm (:

sweet talk

2010-02-18T11:00:00.006+08:00

Just look at this:

My goodness .. I think a picture speaks a thousand words . OREO FLAVOURED ITALIAN SODA . Recommended by 'DRAGON', thanks soooo much . Lol . I seriously think this is the worse drink I've seen in my life .

The bubbletea maker said it's a new drink and this is her first time making Oreo flavour. Wth . $2.30 per cup, she forget put pearls somemore!!!

Complete failure sia, Sweet Talk's name go down the drain .

2010-02-04T09:34:00.011+08:00

Just recently, I've revealed a deeper part of me to someone . It's a tough step for me to take as this had been in me for an extremely long period of time ..

Apart from this, I've taken an unique feel for this person .. I just feel very uneasy, I don't wish this to happen but it just happened . It's like .. on 1st sight then, boomz* . Instantly hit on the person liao . Now the person's name is like hovering constantly around me .. well well .. Haix .

My job will end at 19th Feb . Date confirmed .

Hopefully, I would be able to make it for the badminton stuff . Really hope for my dad to give his consent .

Long time since I've blogged . Well, it's afterall something that is Tag Motivated anyway ..

Being 17 yrs old (profile updated btw) somehow make me feel so much older .

Not feeling very good lately, especially since last week .

Regret .

2010-01-27T07:57:00.002+08:00

Haix, just got my JAE results: Banking and Financial Services, Sg Poly ..

Kindof ruined my birthday mood actually, because where I wanna go is actually NP not SP . But, oh well .. nevertheless, still the course that I wanted .

2010-01-18T08:36:00.002+08:00

So long didn't post alrdy .

'God' of piano =)

2010, new year awaits (:

2010-01-04T09:58:00.003+08:00

It's a totally fresh new year, 2010 . Naturally, most of us would have new dreams or resolutions that we want to do for this year . Well, for me, it is to complete reading the Bibble within this year (:

In addition, I would also add a few quotes in every post to spur me to continue reading it .

Went for countdown on the 31st with some friends, followed by a 1.40am movie, Treasure Hunt . Personally I felt that the show suck . Haha ..

Today would also be the official start of school for pupils from P1 to Sec4 . Statistics say there would be about 500,000 of them and this time, I would not be in it!! It's that something to be happy about? Or not?? Good luck to those in pri and sec schools (:

It had been 3 weeks into my job already . Honestly it didn't turned out the way I wanted . My working shift time suck . Suck real bad . Wad's the point of having 3 ppl +1 working with me but in a totally different time??? And though most of the other workers are very nice, there are 2 which are like some old grandma that just won't keep their damn mouth shut, nagging at every puny little detail of mistake that I've done . They would seize every oppitunity! Such an 'oppitunist' sia . Would be getting my 1st pay tomorrow, I think . Just gotten my ATM card as well . Hope things would change for the better ..

Will be playing badminton later, tmr and on fri . All with different ppl . Having bbq on fri night as well ..

*" Let us make man in our iamge, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that walk along the ground ." ~ Genesis (1:26)

*" For God knows that when you eat of it (from the 'tree of good and evil' )will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil ." ~ Genesis (3:5)

*" But you must not eat meat that has its lifeblood still in it" ~ Genesis (9:4)

"Whenever I bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind . Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life . Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth . " ~Genesis (9:14,15,16)

2009-12-30T09:15:00.001+08:00

The Nigerian guy that tried to bomb the U.S airliner on 26th Dec 2009, he looks like Tiger Woods doesn't he???

2009-12-28T08:54:00.002+08:00

Going for a small 'buffet' later, followed by conducting a mini 'music tutorial' for someone (:
Then will be playing badminton with Sean in the afternoon .. Haha . Have not been meeting him for a really long time .

Gundam Invoke . Yes, it's a old song, I know that . But for the pianist over here, he's AWESOME (:

2009-12-24T08:52:00.002+08:00

Everyday nothing but work . Today from 12 to 8 pm . Tomorrow, Christmas somemore, 2 to 9 pm -.-

Wei Jie and Edwin good lor, work 5 hours only . If I'm in either of their departments, how good .. ...

2009-12-23T07:58:00.005+08:00

I'm now officially a fish monger . My job environment rocks, everybody so kind (:
Furthermore, there's another 16 yr old part time job person just next to my fish store . Haha .

Well, I'm feeling kinda suckish now actually . Even dreamt about badminton last night, constantly thinking about it . Lost in doubles with a score of <10 - 21 .. What the hell, I've never lost until so jia lat before la . The whole game was totally manipulated by them . Shouldn't have accepted playing with those 2 super pros in Cedans .. -.-"

=

2009-12-17T11:39:00.004+08:00

My parents thinks they know me very well, but do they? I seriously doubt so .

Don't know why, but I just feel kind of uneasy these few days .

I maybe starting work next monday . Those that know where's that place, please keep it to yourself . Thx (:

Another 3 to 4 weeks to result realise, and another 3 to 4 months to life in polytechnic . Haha . Now, I am really unsure which course should I take . Science based biology? Business related? Or .. Psychology???? Just hope that my L1R4, in the first place, can make the cut (:

.

2009-12-10T15:46:00.002+08:00

No words can describe how tired I am . I mean physically this time .. haha . At least that's better than being tired mentally .

Imagine waking up at 7.30 in the morning, going to Cedans to play bowling and badminton straight after that? Eating my first meal at 3.30pm .. ?

Well, that's just what I did yesterday . And for the day before, went to Vivo to find job .. at Superdog shop .

Forehand drives, Backhand drives, Forehand Drop shots, Backhand Drop shots, Forehand Net shots, Backhand net shots, Forehand (jump) Smashes, Backhand (jump) Smashes, Trick shots and footworks ..

Master all of them and I can be the next Lin Dan!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hehe, dream on Michael =.="

2009-12-01T17:18:00.002+08:00

Today was especially tiring in Cedans . Partly is because no mood . What's more, the 2 groups on both sides of mine were so pro, then my group and I was like so inferior . Haix . Lately so many school teams go there play . Hardly smash . Didn't even dare to smash, especially when the bunch of school team players on our left were still playing . Lol, wait miss then so Diu Lian sia .

Btw Yz, cheer up okay? Your hair will grow back in no time (:

*** If there's job offer, recommend me thanks .

2009-12-01T08:57:00.003+08:00

Is it wierd? The habit of waking up early like school times is still running in my blood . I wake up around 8 am like every weekdays!! Not sure if that's a good thing . Watched a couple of Nami Tamaki videos just now, interesting girl (:
Really powerful voice and nice dance steps .

She's 17 years old in this video, can you believe it .
She started performing when she was 15, dancing and singing to a large crowd of fans . Now she's only 21, just 5 years older than me! Wth . Really Tong Ren Bu Tong Ming sia .
Super young yet so talented .

Look at her, it's just .. AMAZING . Her performance can easily surpass other more experienced and older singers . Excellent for her age .

4B chalet

2009-11-30T12:01:00.004+08:00

Few days ago, I went for our first, and maybe the last, 4B chalet . There were a total of 19 of them I guess .

Let me try to recall the names (I don't wanna forget my class ppl that fast):

Hui Xin
Qingyi
Yun Rui
Jessline
Xiao Qian
Jia Yi
Yan Ting
Crystal
Jolene

Mathew
Sean Ho
Douglas
Wen Chuan
Teng Hui
Zhen Xiang
Pin Xiu
Jing Yong
Nigel
Wei Jie
Edwin

Me (:

.. Feeling nostalgic just by typing the names . Can't believe it . To be honest, I'm not close with them before the chalet . In fact I seldom mix with them . I'm usually with Li Zhong and the other 2 . Initially at the first day, I felt a bit uneasy at the beginning . However after a while, the feeling fade away . There're quite a no. who asked why didn't I stay for the 1st day .

Here's the true ans : I didn't expect to blend in . I fear awkwardness . I do not want to risk being left out .

Little did I expect myself to enjoy the BBQ (though didn't talk much), so much that I went back to find them during the 2nd day (along with Wei Jie and Edwin) .

Through the night cycling trip we had as a class, I could really feel the class spirit, the feeling of being together as one . 1st time feeling like that for this class I guess . Council of 7 were not invited, sad ..

I love 4B!!! Hope there's such gathering again (:

2 - 0 - 1 - 2

2009-11-24T14:12:00.006+08:00

Watched this movie last night . Pretty interesting, the devastating movie scenes were damn impressive . However, the plot of the whole story is almost exactly the same as NOAH'S ARK!!! Lols . Flood covering the Earth, then people and animals being loaded into the giant 'ship' and etc . The only thing it lacked in this story was the dove, I think . XD

Changed blog skin . Was being forced by circumstances .

Hiking at Bukit Timah hill can really cause fatique, especially when you walk for about 12km . Fun though . Haha (:

*Some times, I really hope Dooms Day would come . Then I would not have to wear 'masks' when meeting ppl anymore . It's harder to forget then I thought . I don't want to risk hurting myself (and ****) even deeper, so I did that . But what's the point, is it worth it? I'm like just torturing myself .

a week after Os .

2009-11-19T17:41:00.003+08:00

It's exactly 1 week since O levels ended . Haha, have been going out daily except today, making it 1 of the most boring day in this week (much much better than b4 Os though) ..

Okay for the more interesting parts ..

Sat . Went to my mum's workplace with 1 of my close frien to help out in the eye screening cum diabetes day thingy . 7am - 7pm . Really a unique experience, doin crowd control and stuffs . Wondered about the entire estate at least thrice . Had Subway for breakfast, Mos burger for lunch and Sakae for dinner . Came out in Ch 5 news!! But onli 1 sec of me .. haix .

Tues . Prom night . Dogg tired the whole damn day . Woke up at 7am ++, used com . Went to school for stupid thing from 10 to 12, then played badminton with Justin in the fkin scorching sun from 1 ++ to 3 and finally meeting wei jie and the other classmates for prom at 4pm . Whole night of eating and photo taking . Went to play pool with them after that til 3am ++ . Guess what, woke up at 8am ++ the next day due to a stupid phonecall from my BAND FRIEND . Can't manage to re - sleep after that .

Wed . Bowling in the morning . Borrowed 2 Roald Dahl books as well . Finished one within an hr or two at night . Ate Ajisen for lunch .

Thurs , today . Nothing .. =(
Everyone like not free . Slept throughout whole afternoon as it was raining . So shiok, natural air con .

The other days were just regular games of badminton (:
Bought a set of Adidas shirt , shorts and Reebok sport shoes on fri btw . Total less than $200 .
Prom wear was bought on that day at Jurong Point as well .

Tmr morning goin to Cedans again .
Will be an interesting morning i guess, filled with new tips and skills . XD

freedom at last (:

2009-11-13T11:10:00.003+08:00

O' LEVELS IS FINALLY ..

OVER!!!

screwed

2009-10-23T08:10:00.007+08:00

Ytd was total screwd up . The fkin sci prac examiner wrote the time 8.32 - 9.48 . AND THEN they realised the time is wrong, they LAST MINUTE change to 9.33!!! Ass clown, almost all of us were caught by this time thingy . Some of the ans I wrote crap due to complacency in the initial time . They didn't even gave us any grace time at all for the time mistake at all, not even 10 sec!! WTF! And I broke a test tube, I meant a hard boiling tube . Yes, it broke through extreme heating and cooling so it cracked without even the slightest sound . As a result, my whole paper was wet . Mind you, that's the first time I was so screwed for practical, and of all prac, it's O levels itself . Omg .. I really dunnoe what to say .

After school I've no housekey as I left it in my parent's car . My phone was left at home . So it was the first time after sooo long that I used a public phone . Went over to yz house and so the whole afternoon was burnt without studyin . Played badminton instead, so sinful . Blister on my right thumb now somemore and O level written papers are next week . Wow.

I might as well ram into a wall and say bye bye to this world ..

zombie - like

2009-10-15T17:18:00.006+08:00

Had not been blogging for a long time . My com had not been working normally these days, hanging and can't even switch on sometimes .. Well .

O levels had been taking a great toll on me, I'm really .. I don't know how long more can I endure . I tried to push myself, alot . I really did made an effort, but somehow I feel it wasn't enough . Somehow, I feel that something is not right, like adopting a wrong strategy in doing things?? It's just one more month .. hope that I won't be affected by other things until after 13th nov.

I've come to the end of my secondary school days. There're both sweet and bitter memories, esp the lower sec days . Sec 4 is just too stressful, but its alright apart from studies .. Dun breathe about sec 3. Sometimes just can't bring myself to face them , just overwhelmed with awkwardness . I'm not so thick skin as to throw myself back into a grp of ppl out of the blue . I mean, this kind of things can't be dealt with a single big step , it have to be formed with a chain of many small and numerous steps . It can't happen over night . Thinking back, I dun noe how did I even bring myself to clean away some of my memories . I always have mixed feelings whenever I dwell on this subject . Well .. It would be great if things have not change. But .. If things were to slip back to the old past, I need some time to adapt and adjust and I will definitely try to do so . Afterall, they were huge pieces of gold in my life . I won't use the word regret, it's not something really to regret abt oso . I think time is a huge major factor . No matter how deep things maybe, time can just rip everything apart, leaving it with nothing but a mere mess ..
A bunch of very nice ppl actually . Too bad I can't blend in , didn't appreciate . Hope it's not too late to change .

I really fear my Os . Really . I feel so inferior .. Idk . I've no other means to express myself other than typing it out here .

My posts are boring, yes I kno . I'm more than willing to treat this like a diary instead .
Haha (:

/

2009-09-25T17:24:00.004+08:00

Feeling super depressed . Trying to avoid * but yet can't bring myself to do so whenever * start a conversation . I just seem to melt . Why?? It's so hard . Trying to let go yet restraining myself . Just can't bring myself to do so . Plus being in sight would make the feeling worse, making it harder to foreget .. I really dun wish this to affect my O levels .

My humans and A maths suck . The rest should be okay .. Damned, L1R4 alrdy 16 .
Haix, stressed :(

dmsux

2009-09-22T09:10:00.005+08:00

Damned what a suck up morning . Why am I here blogging at this time?? Because my DEAR turban headed DM sent me back for haircut . Fk, it's like only so freakin early and he catch my hair .. Furthermore, it's not even THAT long?!! Well, certainly shorter than his . Got to be back in school by 11am -.-

,,

2009-09-17T15:55:00.002+08:00

Omg so damn bored , I've only me to entertain myself ..
Came home from school so early today then nothing much to do , basically just rotting at home
-.-

()

2009-09-09T17:51:00.005+08:00

The original blogging page is back, haha (:
Finally .

Went to school today at 9.30 for social studies . Waited 1hr flat for the teacher and he came only at 11pm . Lol, I didn't wait . So did many others . Went to play badminton with Sean and 'bear' instead . The latter was inactive most of the time though ..

Played until around 1pm . Meaning to say I was playing under the blazing 12pm sun . Wow . Sunburnt, but luckily it wasn't obvious . Sean's smash improved alot, can't return quite a number of his smashes . Mine somehow deproved, I think . Or probably it was because I wasn't in the best form then. Haha .

Actually planned to go study with someone, but then he said it would be more efficient to study alone . Lol, so meeting cancelled .
Asked another person again, he said he need their school's fullscap paper to do his compo homework or else he can't go . So happen that he didn't have one . Meeting was cancelled again . Wtf ..

Ended up spending the whole damn afternoon at home . Guessed as much, whole day was burnt, not even a minute spent on studying .
This is me, I won't be able to study if I'm left alone at home, seriously .
Got to kick this habit ..

~ 47 more days to O' levels (:

/

2009-09-01T09:46:00.002+08:00

I smashed!! haha . looks like i'm gonna burn away this precious school holiday again -.-

---

2009-08-26T17:58:00.002+08:00

Did some self reflection and soul searching just now . I realised I'm such a bad person. I just choose to pretend nothing had happened and pretend as if we're total strangers . I know it's my fault but yet I just numbed my pain by acting ignorance. That explains why I'm slowly losing them . Haix. If You see this, WAKE me up . --

Got B3 for mother tongue O levels. I kind of expected this grade long before hand . To me, this grade is satisfactory but decided to try again once more . Hope that this crucial decision is a wise choice.

Trying desperately to improve my English standards, my compo is still not up to the mark.

O levels is just another 2 months . Fear for my Bio, A math and Humans. Still very weak in them, need lot of help.

There's quite a number of things on my mind . Dare not even think of them until after the O's ..

-

2009-08-25T18:00:00.001+08:00

Gaussian Blur .. Damned .

post

2009-08-07T17:26:00.001+08:00

Omg first thing first, I can't stand this new blogger post page. So not used to it.
Went to school for some national day celebration thingy today . So bored. Band did not perform, such a waste. Haiz.
Went to play badminton with Sean Goh today after school . Haha. Had been a few times alrdy.
Good buddy (:
Skipped tuition today. Wasted my tuition fees but oh well, I wanna slack this afternoon!! Cos for the next 3 days my dad will be at home and I'll not be able to relax with him around. He is so strict and control me like nobody's business . Damned . --
I feel that I'm losing motivation to study . Fk. I'll better buck up on that. My results is still .. W - O - W. Haha .
So tempted to remove this taggbox -- seriously. Lol. But I'll still post despite this blog being DEAD for months . I need a venue to express myself =P

Life is so monotanous lately. Hope for this major exam to end fast.
Really ~~~ Haix .

.

2009-07-30T18:24:00.000+08:00

removed somethings ~

smile always (:

2009-07-23T16:29:00.005+08:00

I thought the previous post was not able to copy and paste? Or was I wrong? Lol, whatever ..
There's nothing to hide anyway, what I've said is true and I meant every word of it (:

Had MT Listening Compre yesterday . Not bad, quite easy. Though I think my 1st Q was already wrong. But the others should be okay. ^^

School stuff's were fine these few days except for the going home part. It sucks. Today met a sec 2 after school by coincidence and found out something damn shocking to me. Really. I believe the news will spread across the school much quickly then before over the next few days. XD

Lastly,
My mood is good, NOT sad. Understand?? Well, at least for now. That someone, whom I don't know in person, knows what I mean. Thanks anyway. Haha .

Viewers to tagg please, thanks. Then only can I reply you back (:

the cck ave 4, blk 437, 15th storey human;

2009-07-13T18:37:00.006+08:00

ARGH U IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dun make me BURN YOUR WHOLE FAMILY DOWN .
ASSHOLE.

haha

2009-06-30T17:06:00.001+08:00

It's so coincidence!! Omg .
Wonder if I've 6th sense (:

2009-06-29T17:50:00.004+08:00

Today sucks ..

I feel that I'm hidding more and more things . From people to friends to even close friends, can't take it anymore.

Sometimes really don't understand myself. Why am I doing things that me myself feels it's crazy?? I know I shouldn't be doing these, yet .. I did them.

Think I've Depression ):
Seriously .

m

2009-06-26T17:13:00.004+08:00

Hi human beings, I have had a pretty unique day yesterday . Went jogging early in the morning at CCK park with yz . Even now, my leg aches like hell .. think because have not been running for quite some time . Haha .

Went to Subway after that and then he came my house to slack . Switched on the new air con in my com room, damn shiok. XD

We met aml after that at late evening to have dinner at New York and even have our food pictures taken . Sounds wierd but its true (:

Went out to study with ct since morning . Have not met up wif him for quite some timg alrdy . Haha . Learnt a little bit of violin from him too . He broke his violin string after that. Lol. BUT it's not my fault, is he ownself itchy finger then went to tune the strings anyhow. Yea .

Today's tuition was interestin too . Love my teacher . I bet most people won't experience having such a mentor like her, really. Haha . =D

bs

2009-06-22T08:43:00.005+08:00

I need to psycho myself ;

Badminton sucks.
Suttlecocks, nets, rackets, etc all sux.

I WILL NOT PLAY BADMINTON FOR THE WHOLE OF THIS WEEK .

I'm gonna study :D

I believe in myself .
I can do it (:

!!

2009-06-18T16:08:00.007+08:00

Firstly, I need to comment that my tagbox is fast dying .. So please help 'revive' it for me if any of you sees this . Haha .

Okay next, I've air con installed in my room le . Finally . So shiok . XD

Last, have not been studying lately, felt so damn guilty. Sobz.

Loves dragonball song ~ brings back childhood memories ..

geek

2009-06-16T15:48:00.004+08:00

The day before was Father's Day, which so happens to be my dad's birthday too . Haha .
Had quite a good family time . Went Ten Mile and saw Samuel, Gabriel and the whole family plus some other extended relatives there too.

Well, going to have an entire new set of air conditioners set up in my house tomorrow!! Damn, I'm so looking forward to it. XD

Think tonight's dinner will be another big meal . Hahas!!

'Oblivion' in chaos W mode ~ Dj max

2009-06-10T09:31:00.013+08:00

Eh, "Jing Zu Ze Ce, Jing Muo Ze Hei" right? Fine then. Go ahead and do what you want. If you think that I'm such a person, I'm such a bad influence, then it's useless for me to explain myself. Afterall, there's nothing I can do about it. So you siam and get lost lor. I'm perfectly fine with it. -.-

-

2009-06-09T10:27:00.003+08:00

What the hell is 'Baseball Personality'???

1 - 5 - 1 - 10

2009-06-05T14:14:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, even I don't understand myself.
Why do I sometimes do things which I know clearly it's wrong, yet still doing it???

Why Why Why???
I don't ask for much, all I really want is to have someone that really understands me.

I hope that I'm just going through a process which everyone goes through, just that they don't show it. Well, I just hope it's so, though a part of me strongly tells me its not likely.

(... . .....)

cats

2009-06-05T09:07:00.003+08:00

Cats are such suspicious creatures. Whenever I happened to walk past a stray one on the streets, they never ever fail to stare back. Some even run away as if I'm going to catch them and whip out a tasty cat curry meal. =.="

I guess that's called instinct, it's just in their blood. Haha ..
Wierd creatures (:

..

2009-06-04T13:02:00.002+08:00

Omg wth happened to my sound system .. Like got echo effect de.
Dunnnoe wad my dad do to the com until now like that. Lol. -.-

gceolvlchi

2009-06-01T17:02:00.003+08:00

Just finished Chinese O'level for paper 1 & 2.

.. it sucks. ~

alien

2009-05-28T14:52:00.016+08:00

I hate school, really. Over time, I feel that I don't belong there anymore.

I just don't seem to absorb anything. I go just for the sake of going.
I feel that it is just not the right place for me to nuture myself ..

Don't wish to talk about that anymore. It brings nothing but headache.
O' levels, that's worse. Put it aside.

Well, I've been thinking alot recently. Guess it's time for me to reflect how lucky I am.
Instead of thinking of all the negative things in my life, why not think about the happy ones?? Haha.

Who would be fortunate enough to have a complete non blood related stranger, taking care of you for 16 yrs??

Who would be fortunate enough to travel to so many parts of the world since young??

Who would have such caring parents and such a loving family??

Who would have such a close buddy, someone that I know for almost 13yrs, totally non - blood related at all??

Who would have such a wonderful batch of friends??

..

Music ..

violin ,

drumset,

..

Badminton .

...

Is this how life suppose to be? Am I leading one?

Am I considered, a life??

The sweet and sour memories of everything .

Since I was a baby . to primary school . to secondary school ..

jkklelctjywjwczl .. sglzhm .

All those are all I have,

why then, should I not feel sad???

bandbandband

2009-05-25T17:48:00.002+08:00

Well, met a band junior (can't say who) on my way home. Talked about some band stuffs with him .. haha.

Heard that the band has changed. In a sense where there's lots of 'politics' in it.
Backstabbing, power abuse, bla bla bla ..
I don't know how true is it though, but the impression of the band has changed in my opinion. It's like more war like, more internal strife.
Despite the neatly wrapped band's appearance, like how good it seemed to be, can get lots of CCA points etc, it's full of propaganda.
I'm not trying to put down the band, but somehow it's no longer like the spirit and bonding that we had last time.
Is this still the WS band that I know last time?? Haix ..

Anyway, I just hope that the band would improve and will bond together as one. Afterall, it's once my CCA. So just wish all the best for them. ^^

*There would be a handover ceremony on 12th June. Perhaps we are needed there .. Hmm. =)
Haha!!

badminton

2009-05-22T17:00:00.002+08:00

I feel so lucky to have such a good friend to teach me some real badminton training skills and techniques. ^^

Thanks so much, though you won't be viewing this blog, lol. I think u're becoming my idol if this goes on .. hahas.

Okay that's about it (:

2009-05-15T13:44:00.011+08:00

EXAMS are OVER.

Finally .. ...

2009-05-13T16:26:00.008+08:00

Sian ~ Really wished for mid year to be over. Then can slack a while.
Won't be anticipating the exam results. Reason is obvious (:
Haha.

Right arm and right foot quite pain .. really. Well, it's just external injury, but still a pain is a pain. ^^

Lastly, happy belated - Mother's Day (:

2009-05-12T10:43:00.005+08:00

Well well, it has been long since I last used com. About a week? Haha.

Went to restring rackets ytd;

Played bowling. Some striked, some 'langkau'. LOL;

Booked a badminton court and played for abt an hr or two. Guess what? My whole racket fell loose from my hands when I smashed and it flew all thee wayy backk .. Omg. Almost killed the uncle sitting directly behind. Wow, first time in my life having racket flying backwards (:

Although there might be some exam stress, but I kindof like my life now. ^^
Haha. Btw I'm not goin to make it for today's physics test. As usual, my time management sucked. So did not do finish the paper. Isn't it pathetic? Omg.

If things goes well planned, I should be meeting some new people to play badminton in the next week or 2. Haha.

Lastly, may God bless 2 of my friends .. For dunnoe what reason, they have not been in school for many days.
Hope they'll be able to come for school soon (:

*Oh yarh btw, this is my 100th post!! Finally .. .... Haha.

91193642

2009-05-07T16:54:00.006+08:00

Hi fellow human beings, nice to meet u all once again (:
Just here to update for the sake of doing so ..

Going to have Geog exam tomorrow and I have no idea how am I going to pass.
There's just too much to study.

I met Douglas just now at Lam Soon CC (near my house) playing badminton!! Hahas, sounds strange but true. ^^ He stay so far away somemore .. ... Hmm, it's not really that far actually. Lols.

Byes ~

888

2009-05-04T18:11:00.004+08:00

Okay, today was all good except that the 2nd temperature check. My thermometer measured 37.8 degrees. Wtf, then need go down to General Office to report. Being given a mask to wear and a cup of water to drink. Then was sent to sit in an area to stone for half an hr straight, doin nothing!! Lol, after taking tempt again, it went down to 37.4 degrees. -.-
Yarh, I was late today too, but managed to escape free (:

zxcvb

2009-04-30T14:59:00.006+08:00

I felt that the previous post was way tooooo emo le .. so I took it down. ^^

The other reason is that I feel the post had reached its
intended outcome, intended audience (I think).

But well, what I said was true. Every single word.

So, .. Hahas. All the best in life! (:

WATCH ONLY IF YOU HAVE TIME

2009-04-29T16:57:00.014+08:00

Some badminton videos ..

Nice rally (:

Lin Dan, got thrashed?? (9/0)

Yonex All England finals -LD/LCW {1st round}

Yonex All England finals -LD/LCW {2nd round}

~ I really really kindof miss those percussion days .. when we have our band compt days, drumzout practices, open houses, SEA ceremony, band practices, etc. Now, what happened?? It's all locked up in the memory lane at the back of my mind. Never will there be a key to unlock it. Those were the days .. ~

-

2009-04-24T17:18:00.003+08:00

Today's Chinese Oral .. omg. I actually literally Laughed Out Loud with the examiner, and she herself laughed and even called me to quiten down. Reason? I don't understand what she's talkin. Totally not at all. Discussion section, buang like hell.

Result - Sure fail.

Survey

2009-04-23T16:10:00.016+08:00

Top 10 most Awkward social situations:

Wardrobe malfunctions: Zips left undone; Having underwear exposed.
Lost for words: Having no response in conversation; Forgetting someone's name.
Mistaken baby bump: Congratulating someone on a pregnancy when they're not
pregnant; Offering a woman a seat, assuming she is pregnant when she isn't.
Romance mishaps: Wierd silence on a first date; Saying "I love you" for the first time and not having the sentiment returned.
Looking foolish: Making an inappropriate joke; Telling cold joke in which you thinks its funny when nobody laughs.
Feeling left out: Having someone turn their back on you; When no one talks to you at a party.
Embarrassment: Stupid behaviour of your friends; Having your partner acting stupid in public.
Feeling stupid: Seeing that everyone around you understands something while you don't; In a conversation with a group of people that is talking about something that you completely don't know about.
Caught out: Making an excuse for not going somewhere, then being caught in the lie; Being overheard by the person you're gossiping about.
Clumsy catastrophes: Slipping over or falling down while talking; Dropping food or utensils during meals.

*I extracted this from somewhere . Hmm .. Isn't this survey quite true to a certain extend? =)

2009-04-22T16:20:00.003+08:00

Went to play badminton with Justin and Jun Wei's P1 buddy in year 2003 yesterday ..
Was especially fun then usual (:

*Took Taxi back home with someone just now. Hahas. ^^

heat

2009-04-20T18:01:00.003+08:00

Hmm .. the weather these few days is hot like hell. As if a volcano is in SG. -.-
At first, it's me feeling it, then my whole family felt so. Then my tuition teacher and friend felt it over the weekend too. Then today, almost everyone including the teachers are complaining about it. Seriously, it's like above 30 degrees these few days.

"If only burning of coal was all good and no side-effects & Global Warming didn't exsisted...", the world will be a better place to live in (:

1+2=3

2009-04-16T17:42:00.005+08:00

Well, basically my life now is quite monotaneous. Seriously, I think I should really really really stop going down almost every evening liao. If I continue to do so, I'm really scared that I'll not do well for O'lvls. If I do poor, I would really feel super guilty .. Haix.

These few days, I would usually use com almost everytime after school. Then, I'll go down as usual, then eat, then tio forced to sit down and study to around 10pm. By the time, I hardly have the energy to do my homework anymore. I just can't take it, so I sleep. Then the next day, I'll be in school with work undone. then some of my friends will be like 'As usual lahh u, nvr do hmwk again ..'
Seriously, I'm trying to get things done. I really trying my best to kick off this bad habit of not doing my work. So please, if anyone of you see this post, please understand me before commenting about this and that, etc. Well, I'm kinda use to it la .. -.- I've this stupid reputation, can only blame myself for slacking for the whole of last year. Partly because of somebody. Lol.

I realised actually, I can do it. Especially for A math. I can, really, I can do it. The reason why I did like shit is because I didn't listen in class at all for almost the whole of last year. I just shut my brain flat durin A math lesson. So people, please please don't assume this 'Michael = A math idiot' concept. I'm trying real hard to catch up and I really need all the support that I can get along the way. Also, I'm trying to improve my image and reputation for being one of the most 'dun do work, hack care, stress free' in the class. Please don't link me with this concept anymore. In fact, I'm facing more stress then ever.

Went to BPP alone today. Didn't call anyone to tagg along cos felt kindof moody and left out .. Haix. Anyway today was pathetic. Ms Lin 'stole' our second recess away and have had an A math surprise test just now. Luckily it wasn't to difficult. ^^

All the best everyone (:

css

2009-04-13T18:21:00.002+08:00

Campus superstar finals ..

skip straight to 1:05 to start the song straight away.

Yes, Jeron win. He's voice is good.
He deserve the tittle (:

photosssssssssssss

2009-04-06T17:01:00.019+08:00

First thing first, dun ask mii why am I so random as in posting so many many many pictures. I just put it coz i feel like it. ^^

Bless ur com not to be lagg. Hahas, here comes the photo - marathon.

Bazzar poster

Bazzar profits

Hehee .. pri school pic. Omg, how I miss those days.
I looked like nerd (:

Kangaroo. Did u see joey thr?? Haha. Cute rite this pic ..

Marina Barrage.

2nd shoot

Light rays

Light rays again .. but from SG, Malaysia causeway ..

Rainbow (:

Jelly fishes .. haha. reminds me of Ernest Wong. '2 jellyfishes'. lol.

Sharks from sharktale

Pahang Camp

MIGHTY MATHEW. Wonder when I took it?? Hmm ..

Airoplane -.-

Perc '08

Haha ..

Grow up Noel ..

U are in sec 2 now. ^^ Actually LG was in thr too.

Kevin. Maybe the future ADM?? Idk.

BP, WS percs

Big spider .. Reminds me of Denson.

House taken in Malaysia.

D - O - G

Typical marchin shoes. cost only abt S$10.

Caroline night. In malaysia.

2nd shoot

Does she look like Mrs Liau??

'Mr Seet'

My uncle wif his family + Elderest uncle. taken durin grandma 80th birthday.

Cousin. ^^

Haha ..

Picture from long ago. Vivian bala, mum and me ..

Cousin again. ^^

He looks more like my didi.

Hmm ... can consider to be my 'gan di' ba. haha ..

'gan di' also ..

Mum wif dad ..

Can say tat they are my 'gan jie' and 'gan di'

For this, 'gan ma'

AN IDIOT BORN IN THIS WORLD. Haha, 'gan di.'

1 of my closest friend. He looks so diff back then in this pic ..

Dun ask mii who are they .. haha. I kno them from down my block. ^^

That's all. If u wonder, 'y dun hv much of my pics ..'

Simple, cos I'm the photographer. Get it? Haha.

Drop a comment or 2 when passing by pls. Thx. ^^

All the best in life, everybody (:

-

2009-04-05T12:09:00.002+08:00

Phew .. had been very very busy these few days. Wed had bazzar, followed by 3 days straight 'super teens' day camp.

As for the bazzar, we screwed the first 2 recess up. We didn't sell at all. So wasted man, in the end we only got a profit of $15 dollars. However, in terms of sales and effort, I think our group did the best. ^^ Imagine carrying all the popcorn chicken and fries up and down from canteen to the F&N Lab at the 6 floor .. It's no joke okay. ^^
I believe that our group have the most number of people helping up. Haha, I wish to thank Hamizah, Wei Sheng, Justin, Farzanah, Jolynn, Shahrizal, Fira, Natalia, Haryani and all the others for making this bazzar possible .. (:
Lol, sounds so wierd. Haha.^^

The Superteens camp was indeed meaningful. It thought us various techniques to memorise, speed read and gave us the motivation to getting all A1s for O levels. ^^

"What I do is what I get",
"What I say, the body listens" ..
'I can get all A1s for O levels, I want I can, I will.'

Haha, I must be positive and believe in myself. XD
The second day evening was emotional. It's a foolproof plan from Ernest. No normal human could resist it. (:

Okay, that's abt all.

m&j

2009-03-27T15:47:00.004+08:00

U may say i'm sensitive. wadeva. Ytd when i saw tat msg of urs, i totally lost my appetite, seriously. Half a bowl of fried rice thrown away. n wth mus u go around telling others?? today i met ***** he also knew abt it .. next time nothing better to do dun send such sesitive stuffs can anot u?? Fk sia. U kno who u are, gd frien.

Now this is to u, elmo. Stop it okay, i whr de zui u sia, tagg such 'pathetic' word for wad? do u even kno the meaning of it anot? Which part i offend u, wu yan wu gu go say such stuffs to me for wad? and wad 'esp A__Y?' U mean Andy? Y, wad abt him? Do u kno from 6pm+ ytd i called u all the way to 6.45pm++ .. more than 20+ times anot, keep not cannot get through. I even call Jing Kai to see if u got online msn then can contact u, little did i kno later u were chatting wif ur dear meii meii hui shuen for the damn whole while. U kno that around tis time i'll call u to come down de rite? Yet you go 'considerately' jammed up the line. Then after tat when can get through the line le i called again. U didn't pick up. U didn't bother to call back to tong zhi me or smthin like tat. I somemore go bought one whole row of shuttlecock le, durin 6+pm itself, hoping tat later can use. I didn't even intend to ask u to pay me back half the $$. Then today i saw ur tagg .. from ytd 6pm+ de, while u were happily chatting wif her while i'm calling u like hell .. sia la, scold me pathetic?? wth u are to say such thing? U whr itchy, which part of me offend u sia u tell me?!
I didn't delete the tagg of urs, i didn't see the need to do so.
Hey bro, I seriously quite pissed off over this.
I kno u over 10+ yrs liao, hope u'll gv me an explaination abt it.

-

2009-03-25T17:19:00.001+08:00

Changed my side column's video .. finally. Is a jap marchin band show. Those interested can see. If not, forget it (:

!@#$%^&*()_+<>?:"~

2009-03-24T14:47:00.006+08:00

Report sick today. First time doing such a thing. But I'm really sick okay, not fake de. -.-
The school requires someone to fetch us before we can leave the school. However, both my parents are working. So, I called my gan mama to fetch. Little did I know she's outside, so she call her son go fetch me. So, ... ... fetch liao then go see doctor. paid $25. Every got settled and I managed to return back to my cozy home by 11.30. ^^

Shiok lei. Sick le can take lift in school, can go home early, somemore can have a free trip to send me back. Hahas. I dun mind being sick again. ^^ Jus jokin.

Well, guess wad, the first thing i came home is to use com!! Now 4hrs passed yet I'm still using .. Guess I gotcha get some rest.

Byes (:

YO wo shi superman!!

2009-03-23T17:14:00.007+08:00

School today is like shit ..

Having a fever of 38.5˚C and a very bad cough. Throughout the whole damn day, my head is throbbing like hell la. If not for the 2 period A - math, I would have reported sick. School today feels so fkin loooong, it seems like forever before the dismisal bell rang.

Pathetic day :(

hello fellow humans (:

2009-03-19T17:43:00.003+08:00

I'm down on a sore throat and definitely down on fever too (though my thermometer shown otherwise) .. Haven't started homework, let alone revision. How?? I won't be free on Sunday so there's only 2 more days for me to do them and to recover from my sickness ..

Wish me luck .. (:

(0)

2009-03-16T15:38:00.004+08:00

Wow, I feel so much better today. Is it a miracle?? That's a 180˚ change. Can't believe it. Tortise found too .. ^^ HAHAS. Forget it if you dunnoe wad I mean.

Anyway, ... ... ... Well dunnoe wad to say la actually. ^^

*BY THE WAY, PLEASE COME BUY MY GROUP'S FOOD ITEMS ON 1ST APRIL 2009 (AEM's bazzar). Will be selling during lower sec recess and after school. Items selling will be fresh made Brownies from a factory, shake fries, popcorn chicken and soft drinks. COME SUPPORT PLEASE!! Items sold would be made as delicious as possible!! Thanks.

Take care :)

friday 13 - the cursed day?

2009-03-13T15:42:00.003+08:00

Today is fri the 13, the second time for the year. Could it be just mere coinscidence to it or what?? Everyone's life is like going on so sweet & smoothly, yet mine is like ... ... shit?!! WTF.

Sometimes, I will do some underhand means to get something. I admit. Sorry. But usually they are all just for some simple reasons. If these reasons are not met and can't be reasoned out, then it leaves me with no choice. I think I'm goin to do it again today .. Just get this matter settled asap and get done over with. Maybe then, I'll not do such thing again. This whole week, I feel very very very moody and irritated. What I want to do at home this week, except Sunday, are all super constricted. How? Tell me how can, pls? Anybody???????????? -.-

Went home alone today. Almost everyone have their files checked. I didn't even bring mine. In fact I dun even have a file for the 2 subjects. The route back home seems very heavy, long, tedious and super draggy. It's like never ending. I thought alot, reflected alot. Well anyway , I also met some people that I've not meet for years. I hate walking home alone anyway ..

I think these few weeks are one of the worse days in my life so far. No air, can't breathe. Feeling very suffocated. To make things worse, one of my friends is unhappy over me, getting angry and agitated for no reasons. Seriously IDK what I done to him. Psycho. U might as why jump down and end ur pathetic life .. pardon my choice of words.

Just gotten back result slips today. I dun even dare to read it thoroughly, let alone gving my parents to sign. In fact, my dad dun even kno that there's common test. L1R5 : 31. It's hell shit. Seriously. Can't even go ITE. Fine, I'll stop here. The more I say, the more fed up I am.

*I'm not tryin to make myself sound so 'emo', u kno. But then really, alot of things have happened. I can't help it but to pin my emotions here. Very sorry abt it, readers :)
Stay Happy!!! Dun let ur mood swings affect you :D

I think I have split personality .. HAHA!! Lol. -.-
BYE.

pathetic life

2009-03-09T09:15:00.011+08:00

Wtf, I overslept and will be LATE FOR SCHOOL!!!

Well, since i'm goin to be late, why not go a little later?? Now use com first, wait recess then go there .. ... ...... -.-

*In my previous post, I mentioned something abt I'm goin to 'die' on the previous sat day rite?? My god, it happened worse than expected.

Can't u just let me decide these issues for myself??
Why the hell must you interfere in all sorts of things??
Dont you have your own life to lead to??

Felt very fked up. Really. Why must this happen to me? I mean, why must I be the suay one, i'm just one of the many that made tat decision too, but then why me??? Look at what mess I've created. Look what have I done. I dun feel like doin anythin .. Idk how to clear away from this mess and get out of this problematic situation. While I'm typing this post itself, my Form Teacher called 4 times straight alrdy. I didnt pick up. I spent at least 20mins plus on this post, editing and re-editing it.
I feel like in a daze .. ...
How good to sleep and not to wake up, to live in a fantasy world.
It's impossible though.

But anw, I've to say thx to my friendly chinese tuition teacher and my selfless tuitionmate that forked up his church time to lend a helping ear. Hahas .. at least now my spirit feel more lifted up. Also, I got a sense of reassurance that there's ppl out there that knows how I am feeling, and understands what shit am I going through now.

--

2009-03-06T15:33:00.004+08:00

Common Test over. Results majority taken. There's great surprises as well as utter dissapointment. The latter is more I think.

Math~ D7
A math ~ F9
Combined Humanities ~ fail I think

Science / Physics ~ A1 ^^
Chinese .. .... A!!!

The rest I shall not say. Hahas .. Tmr will be a super long day for me. Have to wake up early in the morning for Social Studies remedial followed by AEM til 3 plus and then tuition before meeting my friends for badminton (I think). And last thing, i'm no longer in band, officially. HAHA!! Lol.

I'm so going to 'die' when I go home tmr night.

Well anyway, take care :)

-

2009-03-01T12:25:00.004+08:00

You this worthless piece of shit .. I helped u so much last time and instead of being the least grateful, u accused me of harming u instead?

Can't believe that such 'wang en fu yi 'ppl exist. Maybe you're still a immatured idiot that have not grown up.

I'll not edit the part of my blog though, unless i'm really pushed to the corner to do so.

short day

2009-02-27T17:28:00.005+08:00

Hey hey!! This is the first friday of the year that I got to go home so early WITHOUT pon band!! Haha .. There's no CCA as it's the common test period. However, I might need to go for next fri's and the following few more to make up for attendence sake .. Not sure to call it a blessing or curse. Haix ..

Today's Science/Physics was not what I was expecting, seriously. I can say that the toughest questions might be one of the easiest questions that Pure physics paper would have. ^^
Aiming for an A in it then.

Left with A - math, Science/Chem and Biology. 3 heavy weight subjects for me. And what am I doing now?? Using com for the whole damn afternoon. O god. Haha.

One more thing, guess what? I have yet to tell my parents about this common test. ;)
That's like so sinful of me .. ...

A short video:

(Me myself don't know why am I so hooked up onto piano these days.)

Okay gtg. Have fun in life. =P

*The profile section on the left is updated.

$

2009-02-23T18:13:00.002+08:00

Sometime, I really feel very confused u kno .. Deep inside me, I crave for a sense of belonging, crave for someone. But somehow idk who is it that im looking for. Yes I kno it might sound really dumb. Izzit juz a good friend that i'm lookin for? Or izzit my usual craving for a sense of siblinghood? Or izzit a special someone?? I really dunnoe, i just feel like im very empty inside and is constantly sought-ing for something or someone to fill the emptyness .. what am I looking forward to now? Well, I've many things in mind now, but too bad it's the sec 4 yr. I've no choice but to push these thoughts to next yr. For now, just focus on my studies .. Haix.

*I feel like learning violin, guitar, sexophone, trumpet, drumset and piano again!! Is it ever possible?? Is there a poly course on music??? I really feel like extending my future career into these regions .. Maybe is add some business thoughts will be even better. XD

~You all don't hv to understand this post as there's not a need for you all to do so.

band band band .. no more band

2009-02-22T00:33:00.005+08:00

Yo!! I know it has been really a very long time since I last blogged. Had been really busy with my school and study stuffs ..

I've offcially graduated from band (though still must go a few more times for CCA attendence sake). To be honest, it's a combination of mixed feelings in my heart now .. Hahas. Well, I got to admit that the Band had changed me alot la okay. I've also made a number of very good friends from this CCA too. So, no regrets~ =P

This video is the song that my band is actually practicing on (1 of the most challenging song ever attempted by WSMB) .. hopefully they'll master it by the Spring Carnival. ^^

All the best :)

=

2009-02-16T18:00:00.003+08:00

Wow .. really very very long since I updated the blog. Hahas, recently there's an english assignment on the advantages and disadvantages of blogging. So .. nah nothing actually.

School now is okay already la, I've stabilised all my subjecst EXCEPT for A - math. O god, mentioning it give me headache le. But i'm so not goin to drop it ..

I've been sitting with Sean, Hadi and Li Zhong they all for these few days .. Not bad la, at least sitting there gives me the motivation to study (:
Got any questions can just ask them.

*How am I going to break the news?? Gosh.
*Should I take up the AEM?? Omg.
*Health check coming le .. How sia.
*Should I go for A math tuition? Should I invest my time on it? Or Should I just give it up?? Haiz ..

what a day

2009-02-04T17:03:00.004+08:00

Okay .. I was late today, again. IF only I didn't take bus to school today .. I wouldn't be late anymore, in fact I would be early!! Fuck. Not blaming anyone here as it's not anobody's fault. -.-

Anyway, today is the first time I was caught late with my phone with me. Guess where I managed to hide it?? My ________. OMG, it's like so damn disgusting can. But I don't have a choice, my shoe is too flat so can't put it there.

So, erm .. school today was fine. Everything is fine except that i got really fed up for A math. It's just one simple sum yet I made it so complicated until my friend have to go one whole big round explaining it to me. Haix. I must really buck up on it.

Finally, I went home, under heavy rain!! Fuck, totally drenched .. Going to bathe later. ^^

Sign off here ~

-

2009-02-02T18:19:00.002+08:00

Today super suay .. late again coz i woke up at 8am. then because 3 times late so must see Mr Suki (DM). Then coz fri pon band, so tio scolding too .. hai.

day

2009-01-25T18:15:00.003+08:00

Friday, 23/ 01/ 09:

Well okay, I woke up around 6.16 am in the morning. Bathed, packed my bag before meeting Jing Kai under his block. Took 975 to school and switch to LRT like what I did on thurs. The decorations in my class was stunning la. So damn different, then the arrangment of sits can really be considered as our future seating arrangment. Anyway, the CNY feeling was there .. Played DaiDi, DJ Max and of course ate lots of crackers. Then went to the hall at around 9.30am. Band performance is - speechless- okay. I douwan criticise my own CCA. Yarh, then Kunda singing was like wrong note throughout?? OMG. Suck like hell. Is not even the voice i'm talking about, but even the note oso sing wrong, wth. Anyway the overall performance by the school was not bad, at least the atmosphere was there and ppl were throwing things around the hall ..
-.- so high sia.

After school, went to Causeway Point with Mathew, Zheng Xiang, Jing Yong, Cheryl and Joey. Really had a fun time there la seriously .. One of them bought a shoe that cost $70+ while another bought a short for at least 30 bucks. All so rich .. -.-
Then played a dice game near the kiddy palace there in which I go write all our names on the piece on paper .. Well nvm about that. We went to eat Sakae Sushi after that in which we ended up DAMN full .. It's my first time eating at Sakae with them la. Quite fun, maybe next time can go out with them again. After that I went home at 6pm ++

Then around 6.30, I went down to meet Freddy, Andy and YZ they all lor .. Then dunnoe do wad crap shit over there .. Andy and Freddy fought and quarrelled again. Guess what?? I became Andy's counsellor after that!! And after talking sense to him, he begun to see the situation in a proper picture liao. See, my counselling works okay!! So next time who need counselling can come find me .. Hahas. Lol.

Went home at around 8. Skipped dinner becoz i'm just super super full .. Some time at around 8 plus, Agnes asked if I wanna play badminton with her. Well, she's my ex tuition friend and is my block neighbour la. Since I never really meet to her for like 3 - 4 years, I went ahead with the plan. So well, her skills are really really really good man. She can easily be on pile with any of you badminton guys out there. Afterall she had proper training for few months in the past .. And of course, I got trashed. -.-
Wth. Then we played to around 10.30pm plus before going back.

Then after reaching home, I bathed, of course. My dad insisted that I must study a chapter because he douwan me to drop to combine science. Fuck sia, I dun care la, I will by hook or by crook drop to sub science by next week. Yea so .. Studied til around 1.30am ++ before turning off the lights and go to sleep. ^^

Phew what a longg day. Hope that there's more of such days next time ..

..

2009-01-22T16:47:00.003+08:00

Okay, today is really special. Woke up at around 6.15 today, bathed and went to school with Jing Kai today. Took bus 975 and alighted at the stop next to Phoneix LRT. Took the train went reached school .. I WAS EARLY!! I was late just yesterday and i ended up being early today. Wow. I expected that I might be late, or maybe just punctual because I took a different route to school today. Never did it cross my mind that I would end up sitting no. 2 in class at hall .. Omg, can you believe it. -.-

Anyway he look so different in uniform, lol. Like small kid leh dey. ^^
Ya, so after that had some boring lessons, had physics experiment, etc.

So that's the end for today, now using com for some dumb things. AND one last thing, I've done something today that most ppl won't try. So thrilling, lol. I'm sure this inccident will not be forgotten from me for a longgg time .. ... .... .....

123456789

2009-01-20T17:18:00.003+08:00

Erm, I went to Jason/ Fiona's house with Xiong the day before (sunday) to do homework and some revision .. And we really did study okay!! Throughout the whole day you know .. -.-

We also talked about lots of stuffs there too. Very random topics, seriously. From ghost story to dreams to primary school days to exam stress to sec 4 life to friends issue and of course last but not least, band stuffs. Literally speaking, we spoke like anything under the sun la okay. Then when i'm doing homework, I realised that i share a common chinese compo homework with Fiona!! Lol, then end up doing it together. However, she didn't do finish it, then I ended up lending her my work to copy during recess today. Should be the other way round right?? You sec 5 lei .. So irresponsible.
-.-" Hahas .. joking la.

Overall it's a rather interesting day.
Hope that there's more of such gathering again next time. =D

---

2009-01-12T17:54:00.006+08:00

Okay .. I woke up today after having a dream about my primary school days. Hai, i remember the times when my good friend J.K play everyday in the school. Then remember those days in primary school when J.K, J.Y talk everyday in class .. then the 'angel' and 'mortal' letter box thingy, then studying tgt for the p4 streaming exam. Then there's once when J.Y and I dunnoe do what, ended up rolling down the stairs. It's on a thursday, 1 period before assembly period somemore .. See i still can remember, ^^ Hahas. Then during p5 camp, J.K brought his favourite 3 pokemon cards: Charizard, Blastoise and Venusaur. He happily put in his porket and forgotten totally about it. Then went for water rafting .. Haha, Ho Sae Liao!! The 3 cards ended up floating on the surface of the water, completely wet!! Lols. Those were the days .. ... ...

Anyway, just now ate at Bp with Zheng Xiang, Teng Hui, Jing Yong and Mathew. Then coinscidencely met clement and Jun Jie (Jason) at South View Station. They are my primary 6 classmates, now both in GreenRidge Sec. Clement Changed alot, Jason almost never change at all, except for the height .. Lol.

1 last thing, if anyone of you knows how to play the piano or have recorder or guitar or what, try out these notes:

A, ^C, G, .. E, D, C, A, ^C, F .. ^F, ^E, ^C, ^D, ^F, A#, C .. C, F, A, G, ^C, A#, ^F, ^G ..

It's a nice tune la, go try it if you have the time. I'm sure once you grasp the notes, you'll definitely have no problem with the Time Signature thingy .. And YES, I know the tune song's name but douwan write here, go figure it out urself. ^^

So that's all for today la. =D

The Day

2009-01-09T14:14:00.005+08:00

K i shall update. Honestly, is not that i don't wish to update, but really have no time for it.

So anyway, went to Ngee Ann polytechic for open house yesterday ~ It's really very crowded lahh, flooded by people to say the least. Went to walk around, but didn't really went to see the courses offered. Maybe, i mean maybe, i would like to apply for business course next year. :)
Hope i qualify.

Today, had my pathetic 1st spontaneous writing for the year. I'm like so not spontaneous to do it. Ignore that sentence if you don't understand the word. ^^
Then had english lesson. The letter writing work that i did with Pin Xiu was the 1st in time class to be shown on projector, despite not completing it .. -.-"
Social Studies came along next. The lecture was on Iraq and some wierdy country la. It's really kinda interesting. But had to go off early during that lesson for the main course of the day, SEC 1 CCA ORIENTATION!! =D

Yarh so for the orientation, I managed to perform with base drum despite not going for all 3 parctices before that. ^^ I'm not being proud here alright .. I got to be honest with you all dudes, our band was somehow playing the attention seeker role, having the whole stage occupied with music playing thoroughout the whole thing. O.O*
Anyway, Yong Xiong, Aljhi, Evan and Michael played some kind of 4 person percussion drum solo. =) It was an extra thing fyi ~
There's a part where our band played the front part of the SYF's show. Omg, all of us are like so enthu la, to the extend that the blowing instruments crack like hell and we percussionist rushing as if we are catching a plane.
Well, we tried playing tonal for American Idiot and managed to do it. (Small cake actually.. LOL)
Then it was the first time i tried playing Pirates Of Carribean. Nice song, really. It's actually just pure coinscedence that both songs are on my blog, just that it's in different version.

Packed up after that and that was dissmisal time. Sec 2s and sec 3s band members, have a good time for your band prac today. Sec 4s, mostly, will be going to Singapore Poly. ;)

For me, I ended the school day by pon - ing both band and Sg Poly. HAHA!! Instructors don't visit my blog, thx lots. =)

PS: I spend quite some time doing this post k, I wrote it as formal as possble. Give me 5 stars for effort done. Haha, lols.

-

2009-01-05T17:19:00.002+08:00

Hmm .. Very stressed up being a sec 4 student. Really. Let's see my schedule today:

~Woke up at 7.15am ..
~Went to school, rotted ..
~Got scolding for bio which is the last period of the day. Reason: Pon bio remedial for all days ..
~Stayed back a while to copy chem mindmap ..
~Reached home at 5pm. THIS will be the normal time I'll reach home everyday. Omg ..
~Using this rectangular thingy which my fingers pressed on some buttons ..
~Will be relaxing by watching TV and eating dinner til 8pm ..
~Will be doing chem mindmap (cont.) ..
~Will be doing A - Math work ..
~Will be doing English work ..
~Will be revising Bio for class test on Wed, in which i know TOTALLY nothing at all ..
~If got time, will be doing physics ..
~Will be sleeping (I suppose) ..

Imagine repeating this whole cycle over and again for the whole damn year ... Wtf. Will be staying back for A - Math tomorrow somemore.
Stress la, can someone help me share this burden???

quiz

2008-12-29T08:40:00.008+08:00

Okay firstly, I shall say that I had a nice experince during my trip to Malysia ~ Peraq >> Sitiawan >> Taman Raja Shariman. So if I'm free, I will update my trip here in details as I took record on almost EVERYTHING that I did there. Lol.

Another thing, I've used the com for only about an hr plus just now had to restart my com 4 times!! Siao liao, hope is not virus.

As I've been tagged by Yeong Zhun and Hui Shuen to do this quiz, I shall do it la. Since i'm so bored anyway ..

1. What have you been doing recently? sleeping most of the time as i'm not feeling well.

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off? Obviously rite .. -.-

3. What happened at 10am today? It's not even 10am now.

4. When did you last cry? Call Celebi to check for mii ;D

5. Believe in fate/destiny? Half half lor.

6. What do you want in your life now? Sty happy, to lead a simple life, just faster grow up get a job and settle down. No bigg ambitions, they kill.

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood? Umbrella more often than hood.

8. What's your favorite thing to do on the bed? Sleep la. Dumb la this question.

9. What bottoms are you wearing now? Shorts.

10. What are the nicest things in your inbox? E-mails -.-'''

11. Do you tend to make the relationship complicated? Not really .. wad for sia?

12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone? No.

13. What was the last movie you caught? Should be Madagascar escape 2 Africa. Watched it wif stick, pingu and bear.

14. What are you proud of? Nothing ..

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say? Lazy check all .. there's 600+ inside from months or even yrs ago.

16. What was the last song you sang out loud? If it must be singing out loud, then it should be Caroline and Christmas songs barh.

17. Do you have any nicknames? Yes .. Mike. For the base drummers, polar bear!! LOL.

18. What does the newest text say? Haven't check.

19. What time did you go to bed last night? 2am +, despite having fever.

20. Are you currently happy? Not really, seriously I've forgotten when's the last time I really felt happy.

21. Who gives you the best advice? Humans.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can? Tak faham la ..

23. Who did you talk on the phone last night? Late at night no, but 7pm yes .. Andy.

24. Is something bugging you now? OMG there's like countless of things??!!!

25. Who was the last person to make you laugh? Forget le.

For the people whom I mention below, PLEASE kindly do this quiz and pass it on to 10 of your other friends. ;D

1. Yong Xiong

2. Fiona

3. Hui Xin

4. Joey

5. Jia Zhi

6. Dion

7. Jolene Ju

8. Hamizan

9. Andy Koh

10. Freddy

Thanks!!

PS (impt): I realised my blog can't copy and paste those words, so click this link for the quiz questions .. http://the-real-mii.blogspot.com/

~This blog is now officially UPDATED.

yesterday .. today/ video

2008-12-19T08:55:00.005+08:00

Yesterday - 18/12/08, thurs:

Slacked in the morning, then about 2 plus in the afternoon went out to makan. Had a hard time deciding weather wanna go lot 1 or lot2 .. lol. I got to show my newly made video and had it uploaded on youtube!! Haha. Then after that went to play badminton a while in which Jing Kai came to join us ..

At night around 8 plus, met Lester and his another friend at mega playground there .. Then we played blind mice. Yes, we really played. If 1 sec 3 still can la, but imagine 3 sec 3s jumping around the place .. wow. The small kids which were there then just suddenly vanished, must have been called back by their parents for fear that they might be squashed or trampled on. Then after we played finish, they started to go back to the playground. LOLS .. I feel so inconsiderate sia. Hai .. -.-

Today - 19/12/08, fri:

It's just like 9 plus now, maybe goin out for lunch at 12+. Then at around 8pm today, I'll be taking bus to malaysia. Will be visiting my relatives, meeting my uncles and aunties which are all around my age .. Fyi I've an uncle which is 10 yrs old, 2 aunties which is 16 and 18, grandaunty which is around 40+, etc. Hais, had been years since I last saw them.

Wonder wad will I be doing 24hrs from now .. Lalala. Maybe still sleepin in my grandma house. :)

Before I end this post, i shall include a video:

('Trumpet Audition' .. being acted out, not a real auditon, deh!!)

Yes I kno it's abit dumb, but still it's kinda interestin to me though. Made me want to learn trumpet now .. sigh. ^^

Okay done, signing off here .. Cya.

(-)

2008-12-15T08:01:00.002+08:00

Wad the hell la .. hai, dunnoe wad to say. Dissapointment.

Post submitted on 8.04AM, 15/12/08.

pathetic post/ a normal everyday life

2008-12-13T21:57:00.002+08:00

Hohoho .. santa coming soon. Lol.

Anyway, my mum went out to work this morning, to clear her work for next week as she will be going to malaysia wif my family. My dad went to get my car for servicing. May got some prob wif it or somthin, idk. Then, I had my first drop of water and food at around 2pm +. After slackin to about 4, I went down find yz and andy before going tuition. LOL, the teacher was late by half an hr and guess wad, she treated everyone a packet of newly bought snack from 7-11. Good rite this cher?? Hope she'll be late every week. ^^ lalala ...

After tuition, my parents went for wedding dinner, so i'm left alone at home lor. Hai .. just went lot 1 to slack, bought big mac and bubble tea and came back. Now? Usin com, doin somethin veri stupidd. U dun hv to kno. Haha.

PS: The moon tody is huge. Really, hope u'll be able to see it b4 it's gone for good ;)

I shall end here then ~

-

2008-12-13T10:09:00.003+08:00

Eh you, yes it's you, you kno who u are. I really hate it, better make sure u dun do this again. -.-

1,2,3

2008-12-12T10:35:00.002+08:00

Hai .. thr's lots of things in my mind now. Should I tell them or should i not?? I just got back my phone lei, then now must go through another round of .. serious scolding. Omg .. nooooo, why must it be me goin through all this. -.-

Anyway, ytd was a normal yet not very normal day. The normal thing is that go out wif yz, fred and andy they all as usual, but the not normal thing is got some ppl veri bu suang of our group. Johnathan, izzit like tat spell? Wadeva la. He damn gl, oso dunnoe wad we do to them. Hai, then go wack yz, but then .. lol? Like massage?? Diao la.

Now I abit miss band lei, seriously. So long nvr play drum liao .. Even if yes, when's the last time I really play shiok tonal base beats with the other base drummers.? Like months ago la. The open house those practice, only got 1 base, somemore no tonal. Hai .. next time even if got chance to play tonal oso will be like those sian sian type like straight beat tonal onli. When can we play 'bring me to life', 'phantom' or even like 'batmobile'?? I dun think the chance will ever come le la. Hai .. Next yr sec 4, must study like siao.

Cya ;)

suay/ dao mei/ unlucky

2008-12-11T11:57:00.006+08:00

Suay la .. Damn unlucky la.

2 weeks before, my mum got car park fine. Just because she park illigal for like 10mins.

Last week, my mum lost her ATM card.

My dad, recently told us that due to work, may not be able to go malaysia to visit relatives with us.

Now for me, I LOST MY WALLET.

Oh God.
.
.
.

My ez- link card.
.
.

My IC.
.
.
.

My $30+ dollars.

Sad case.

Then recently jus now 1 of my friend say wad got coughing then in the end nv meet. Wth. So last min. Fine, anythin .. No mood anyway.

PS: For those that don't know, I GOT MY PHONE BACK!! YEA. Lol.

Sign off here~

+/-

2008-12-09T08:42:00.000+08:00

Tues, 9/12/08, 11.52am (screw the date and time on the top, its crap) :

It is said that "a ruler is capable of overseeing things that stretch far away, but is unable to see it's own nose" ..

It's damn true man. Why is it that some people can see so much good in others and know others so well, able to point out others mistakes until there's not a pin drop left of error, BUT unable to realise their own mistakes and their own weakness? The virtual world can be a world of great deception. Really. Sometimes, these words can't be trusted too much as some people jus hide their real personality in it, revealing their false self. Sometimes when seeing some people's written stories or pharases, I feel really impresssed, but then the feeling is just temporary becoz OBVIOUSLY the person's personality contradicts what he writes COMPLETELY!! I think all these just boils down to just 2 words, split personality. It's not necessary a bad thing, as long as a person wants to change, and if others give the person a chance to change, then it would be good. The thing is some people just don't change. Super bull headed personality who thinks that they are the best.

Of course, no one's perfect coz if one is, he would be God. But the purpose of those Life Principles is to mould people to be more and more like Him. Okay anyway, I dun wanna elaborate anymore cos if I were to do so, I wont stop.

ps: I FORGOT TO WATCH THE 'LIFE TRANSFORMERS' AT CH 8, 8PM YTD!! OMG .. Well, I thought it was a weekend. -.- it's too late to regret anyway.

Take care ;)

"yesterday ~ all my troubles seems so far away .. .. ..."

2008-12-06T11:34:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, 5/12/08 :

Erm, Yeong Zhun went for church camp, next mon then come back. Worse of all, it's a public holiday .. sigh. So this weekend i should be slackin at home most of the time liao. Lalala ..
Anyway, Andy the Chicken Little, came to my house today. When he saw my piano and guitar, it's as if his eyes are going to poop out anytime.Haha, lols. Then he used my com to do somethings. Know something?? I help him create blog sia, cos he see mine then say he also want. Hahas. Guess wad?? When I say I'll help him create one under his own name, he say scared later police catch him. I'm like, oh my god. LOL. But see he like so fascinated to have a website for himself then help him make one under my main acc lor. The profile section, kept as anonymous. Diao rite?? Hai .. he's my junior anyway, now still in primary school. Can be considered as my small bro ba.

Then after that, go down my block as usual. Got alot of them ytd, about 15 of them. Some are Ufred, Jia Chuan, Long Chen, Freddy, Benjamin, Hui Shuen and Andy .. The Benjamin is damn damn damn damn damn gl. GL to the core man. I douwan describe. Then got one chinese that look really really like a malay.

Today, 6/12/08:

The time now is around 12pm, both my parents are off to work. Later at 5pm. I will have my first sec 4 tuition. ^^ See how, if i suang then maybe i'll go down early to meet them before proceeding to my studies. Hahas.

*ps: SOME PEOPLE complained that my blog is quite lag, so maybe I'll try not to post so much vids for now. ^^

That's all for this post ;)